Uggg.

Ain't it funny how you can watch a movie when you're younger and hate it, but when you're older you like it?
It hasn't been but two years since I first saw the commercials for a movie series, I'm not going to say which one cause you'll think I'm dorky, and I thought it looked like the stupidest, mushiest thing alive. Then tonight I got pulled into watching all three movies in the series so far and found them absolutly cute, though it did bug me that between the second and the third they switched the actress that plays Misty... but oh well.
So I've decided that the world's against me again. Yesterday I went to softball open field cause my friend wants me to try out again this year, and things went great until that is I got hit in the leg with a softball, that's really hard, going about 60+ mph. It didn't hurt to much at first but after a while the pain set in. Then I caught the ball goin about the same speed with my ungloved hand, and jammed my finger on a bounce ball. I had to go to work and that didn't help the swellin to much, now I've go this nasty bruise where I got hit. Oh and did I mention I'm having major cramps due to me being a girl?
Life is wonderfull. cough++ (I don't expect anyone to get that cough except thoughs in my ASL class)

more pain

the blister popped, poured vinager over it to disinfect it... more pain.
And now when ever I accedently touch it, you guessed it more pain.
Good news? My thumb stopped throbbing, and now just has an ugly bruse....
Bad news? I am never ever going to find love... or atleast I won't try and find it. Go watch Moulin Rouge you'll understand, things just turn out badly.
But that is a great movie to get you laughing, the first part anyway. I swear the writer/director was on drugs.

This stinks

Pain, so much pain!
First I burn myself with liquid sugar that is over 250 degrees hot, then I go and play vollyball and do something to the first joint in my thumb. which has started to throb.... Did I mention that the sugar was really really hot and caused a really big second degree burn on my left index finger? Which also throbs every once in a while...
I don't need to turn to cutting* the world does it for me already!!
The ice doesn't help matter much either..


*I wold never cut myself intentionaly.. Never have thought of doing it either. It just seemed like a funny comment.

It's kinda funny when...

It's kinda funny when you freak people out, well not really freak em out but make em wonder if you've snapped and gone all depressed.
I just had an emotional break-down in ASL 3 the other day.
Let me give you the reasons: 1) My art teacher is being an idiot and causing me to overstress on my concentration projects, 2) my mother is putting stress on me to quit work, 3) work, 4) I had to go to a friends suprise birthday party right after work, I mean right after work, 5) I had a headache from the moment I woke up that morning, and 6) did I mention art?
So this is what happened, I went to school, had math and chemestry then went to ASL had a test, which also stressed me out because I think I should have gotten a zero on the signing part but my teacher gave me a perfect score, after the test I sat on the desk behind me and put my head on my knees, thinking it would help with my headache. Then a little voice in my head started to think about art, and telling me that I suck at it and that I should reconsider my choice of being an artist because no one would buy my work, and I started to cry. NOT racking sobs so everyone would know but those tears that come of their own accord. My wonderful friend Michelle noticed and got my attention and asked me what was wrong, I of course hating to cry in front of people said I was fine and put my head back down. She didn't bug me again but started to rub my back, which helped me a lot. Then miss B. said we had to watch a video or work on our story we have to sign for the end of the year, I watched the video because I could hide my tears if I started crying again.
Michelle started talking to miss B. and I didn't want my pickles, long story I'll tell later if peoplez remind me, so I tossed them on to her desk, the one infront of mine. When she got done talking to miss B. she noticed the pickles on her desk and turned to me and said, signed, said oh whatever, "Now I know there's something wrong, you don't want pickles!" I replied that I was fine and she just rolled her eyes.
How gald I am for friends and Ipods, I walked around the school for most of lunch listening to music and would periodically go back to the commons to get more of my lunch, I would pass Michelle and she would sign something like Love ya, or are you ok? My other friends would also ask if I was ok. I told em I was fine, though I wasn't, but it's nice to know you're love, ya know?
Oh then I passed this guy that I think I might have a crush on, I kinda scowled past him and walked past while he looked suprised and I think worriedly at me. I don't know I didn't stay around long enough to really tell. That was school.
After I went home and slept, skipped work, now I think they think I'm going to quit but oh well. I did go to my friends party and I'm glad I did. I got to see some long time friends that have moved. How I miss them....
Sorry this post is so long again.
Thanks once again Michelle, you really helped.
Gotta blaze.

Homecoming

So last week was Homecoming. I was super stoked for it, my co-worker can testify to that. I started counting down the weeks two months before the dance. Anyway I was getting really depressed because it was a week before the dance and still no guy had asked me! I had even started planing a pitty party for that night.
Then a week before the dance my Mom gets a phone call. This is pretty much all I could hear.
Boy:Gurgle gurgle
Mom: Yes this is she
Boy: Gurgle gurgle Kanani
Mom: Yes... How do you know this person?
By this point my sister and I are looking at each other trying to find out if my Mom has a stalker or if it's really about me.
Then my mom gets out of the car and walks around the house so we can't listen in any more.
K lah then starts freaking out because she's figured out that it's probably a guy asking if it's okay to take me to Homecoming. There is much celebration on my part. For the next day I watch my house like a hawk to see if he drops anything asking me to Homecoming.... nothing.
Monday comes and I go to earlymorning semenary. I barely sit down in my seat when my friend comes in with some balloons and a piece of paper, she smiles then leaves. I look at the paper and it says this: "I would explode with joy if you went to Homecoming with me."
I am super stoked for the rest of the day.
After school I go to the bakery where I work and get doughnuts to reply to my date. My co-workers see me and ask what am I doing. I tell and one wants to do my hair and makeup. I agree and then I leave.
The next day I go into his semenary class and drop off the doughnuts with a note saying: "When going to Homecoming with you is such a treat, my only answer can be yes."
I think this gave him the wrong impression. He calls me that night to get to know me before our date. He has to go so he hangs up. Two minutes later he calls back, I don't answer. That's mean I know but I didn't know what to do. The next day he repeats this. And the next day too. Pretty much up till Saturday he called me.
Anyway, Friday my co-worker comes over to play with my hair so she'll know what to expect the next day. She plucked my eyebrows too. Do you know how much that hurts?!
Anyway next day, I get earings from my neighbor, go shoe shopping and go to the bakery to get my co-worker who is utterly confuesed as how to get to my house... Mwhahahaha.
She does my hair beautifuly in thirty minutes and then leaves my house. My sister does my makeup. I call the friend that I got the earings from because I forgot to get the matching necklace. She doesn't answer so I go upstairs to play BattleGrounds, I have plenty of time right?
I finish kicking some Empire butt so I decided to call her again, on the way to the phone I see her and my other friend coming so I open the door for them. Both of their jaws dropped upoun seeing me. They rave at how cute I look and then we start to freak out, well I did, a the realization that I only have thirty minutes to get into my dress paint my nails so they match my dress and have time to breath before my date gets there.
So we finish with plenty of time, around ten minutes, so I go downstairs to show my dad the finished product and all of a sudden I hear "KANANI! HE'S HERE!" I freak out and run upstairs, meeting my two friends in the hall so I won't be in the room when he comes in. My mom calls for me when he's in the main living room so I walk out. "Wow" no kidding that's the first thing he said to me, Wow. I can totally hear my friends in the hall and look over my shoulder and see them poking their heads around the corner, I roll my eyes and pin the botanier(sp?) thingy on him and leave. We get into his sister's convertable and drive off, with my friends waving frantikly at me from the window.
Very little small talk in the car and we arrive at the resteraunt. Waiting for us was our group, full of people I have prior issues with. We make it through dinner and go to the dance. Which was fun except for the fact that my date didn't talk to me very much but apparently he had a magical time, according to what he told his semenary class the next day.
I got the account three times seeing as I have three friends in his class.
It was fun but not magical.
Sorry this post is so long.
Laterz, gotta blaze.

Who needs sleep?

I had a lot of homework to do last night, a culture paper for ASL, to read a chapter in math and do problem #9, and I think to finish chemestry homework but I'm not sure about that one.
Anyway so I was all ready to my homework and I did, right?
Wrong.
When I went into my bedroom to get a pencil, there she was. Max's face was staring up at me from the box cover of season 1 of Dark Angel, sci-fi stuff that's pretty cool. I couldn't resist so I thought to myself, "Just one episode, come on, you've already started watching one so it'll only take thirty minutes."
And so I only watched that one episode, right?
Wrong.
I watched three. When I looked at the clock it was 1:00 in the morning. Yeah not so good when you have to get up at 5:30 in the morning to make your first class. Plus that homework that I had to do, yeah none of it got done. Well some chemistry did but that's beside the point.
So, now you're probably asking yourself, "How did she get out of this one?" Easy, I still got a bad cough and a stuffy nose from over the weekend and I thought I needed to take one more day of rest to get over it.
But I promise this sick day was needed, and it was not a get-out-of-homework-for-free-day.
Anyway I've got to go get more sleep, I'll post about something cool in a few days or less.

Idaho!

So yesterday me and my mom went to Idaho for Liann's birthday party. It was tons of fun!
Not only did I get to see Liann but Kelli was there too! Sadly we were the only three from EFY but we still had fun with Liann's friends playing fuseball and then we got marshmellow guns and had a marshmellow war. That was fun. Of course there was icecream, cup cakes and opening presents.
I stayed the night and with some great prodding (two seconds worth) we convinced Kelli to stay too. Liann's parents had a treasure hunt planned and that was tons of fun. We followed a trail of shiny things around her neighborhood. That was fun... well until the creepy lady yelled at us. But then it was fun again. We found the treasure.... after we walked past the last clue a couple of times. It wasn't that hard to miss, a lot of reflecting stickers on a gate. But we were looking past it soooo.
Then we stayed up all night. And I mean all night, until 5:30 am!! Though Liann did fall asleep for an hour during the movie but she woke up later so it was all good.
As my sister has stated in her blog, things are really funny at night when you're really tired. We were talking about my crush and this is basically our conversation
Liann: So you knew ((I shall call him M)) before EFY?
Me: Yeah
Liann: So he lives with you?
Me: Yes, he lives in my basement.
Kelly is laughing really hard through all of this.
What Liann ment to say was, "He lives in your area?" but it became a big joke that got added onto as the night went on.
So now M lives in my basement with his dentures and gupees that eat eachother. Don't ask, long story.
It was so much fun. I can't wait until we do it again.
Have the best day ever!
Twenty points to anyone who can get what book that's from.

*Sniff, sniff*

Okay, so I've been cleaning my room hoping to get rid of a lot of stuff, yeah right.
Anyway I found my yearbook from this past year, not only had I been looking for it so I could verify something, but I got an added bonus when I opened it. The addresses and contact information from EFY that I've been looking for. I really wanted to write my counslors, but couldn't cause I didn't have their addresses. Now I do yea!!!!!
Looking at the addresses made me think of EFY though, I really want to go back. My family and friends are tired of my saying this cause I do almost every day, or atleast I do in my head.
Looking at my yearbook made me think of the seniors who left this year and how I probly won't see them again. Exept for Jeff who randomly drove by one day and gave me a ride, but that was once sooo.
I miss the seniors. I really want to go back in time but I can't so. Whatever. Don't ya just hate that.
Have the best day ever!!!

New Stuff

So the other day I get a gift certificut to this new store in town so I go and get a few things. Kingdom Hearts 2 being among them.
It's ok. The levels are to short in my opinion and there are waaaay to many cut scenes but what ever makes the guys with the money happy. I do like the game play and the worlds they have added though. It's interesting when you have "forms" you get to play with.

I also got a cd by Jenny Phillips, The Mirical. I've been wanting it for a while ever since I sang at one of her concerts and heard the album. I have to thank young women leader for letting me sing at that concert. Though I'm afraid I'll never see her again because she got released today and I think she'll start going to the ward she moved into a few months back. I really hope she stays in ours though.

I apologize(how ever in Dadga's name you spell that) to the friend mentioned in the previous post, I was mad and I overegsagerated. Please note that somethings wern't exactly true. Mostly it was though.

I miss EFY ever so much right now and I really want to go back... truely I've never felt more wanted than I did there.

Party!!

So this past saturday was a stake dance. It was pretty fun cause I got to see a friend that I haven't seen for a while.
It wasn't so great because of two reasons, 1) The guy I like wasn't there, 2) My other friend has resantly become obsessed with Firefly, which normally isn't bad but when she becomes obsessed nothing else matters, no exists in her world, exept for that one thing. So the whole time she was at the dance she was asking me the same questions over and over again.
"Can we go watch Firefly now?" "No."
"Can I borrow Firefly when we go back to your house?" "No."
"I'm bored, can we go watch Firefly now?" "No! It's a dance and I intend to dance!"
"Can I atleast borrow the disks I've already seen?" "No!!!"
My mother has barred me from letting this friend anything that can get damaged, because she tends to loose things for several weeks, give it back, and then I learn that it is no longer usable because she has scratched the heck out of it somehow.
"If your mom wasn't a facter would you let me borrow the box set, and then I give it back to you on Monday?" "No."
"If I gave it back to you tomorrow would you let me borrow it?" "Not if it's going to end up like Aida."
Backround: I got the Aida cd and let her borrow it, she said she would give it back to me the next day unscratched. Ha fat chance. She lost it for over a month and then when I got it back most of the songs were so scratched I can't listen to it anymore.
Anyway her dad showed up a few seconds later and she left. Thankfully and now I know she's mad at me cause it's been over three days that she hasn't texted me, e-mailed or called. Woot! No more pesting about Firefly!!!

Blah

So last week was girls camp. Which was fun exept it was cold so I caught a cold.
Now I spend my days laying in bed, or in front of the tv. Which isn't that bad, mind you. UNLESS YOU NEED TEN MORE HOURS TO GET YOUR FREAKIN DRIVERS LICENCE!!!!
I passed the test on Monday, basically finished my personal progress(I hate being the good child) and now all I have to do is finish those ten hours, get well and then go to the dmv to fill out the paper work.
Camp was fun. I got to be in charge of the fires this year, which was a big suprise becuase our usually piro, Mindy Jo, was up there but she let me do most of it. I did, until this annoying third year wanted to do it. I tried to explain that this was my year to be the piro, and she knew that but she wanted to and I was really mad cause she couldn't light a thing! But whatever. Then another girl who isn't even supposed to be a YCL this year totally messed up secret sister in more than one way.
First off, she totally took over from a girl who knew exactly what she was doing,
Second, she asigned more than one person to a girl, and who was one of the girls that got jipt.... I wonder, leaving leaders without girls
Third, she totally screwed up the handing out process. Usually we have bags hanging up in the camp site and the secret sister person puts them in those but nooo she convinetly forgot the bags so her two friends could hand out the secret sister stuff!!!!
I was soooo freakin mad! It was another thing gone wrong that week that just kept me aching to punch someone really, really hard. But I didn't, and no trees were harmed either.
Oh and another bad thing about this cold? I cough all the time and most of it is accompanied by coughing up mucus. Nasty huh?

EFY!

So I just got back from EFY! Or for you non Mormons Especially For Youth. It was so cool and I want to go back so much. But I guess I'll have to wait for next year. I loved my roommate Katie. I was afraid that i would get a stick in the mud or something like that but she was totaly awsome.
Lindsay and Alisha are pretty cool too. They were roommates. Lyndsay was just a little to hyper sometimes but I guess I was too. Alisha is the coolest person from Kansas!!! Of course I've only met one person from Kansas but that's beside the point. Jordyn had a room all to herself, she was way super cool. She's from Hawaii! And I shall be eternally grateful to Ethyl, her shoe. Long story, don't ask.
Whitney our counselor was really sweet too. Every night she would come and tuck us in. Which i'm going to miss a lot. It's funny because at the question and answer section of Thursday she said that her girls, me and those listed above, had only been together for four days but we had already started to act like eachother, I haven't seen me acting like the others yet but I have caught myself talking like Whitney. It's kinda wierd but cool.
The girls in Lindsay's, the counselor not the girl, were pretty cool too as was Lindsay. I don't think I have every had a conversation while in line for breakfast talking about Kadavers and nasty injuries with girls and then eat breakfast with them. Lindsay you rule so much. You too Whitney!!
Victoria and Tessa were roommates and at first I didn't really like Tessa cause she's from a rivalry school, but soon we got over it. Victoria I didn't get to know that well but she seemed cool. Kelli and Lianne were roommates and they were awsome! Kelli was super fun, and Lianne was shy at first but came out of her shell by the end, specially with the Patrick insident. I think Annie and Karlie were roommates but I'm not sure... Annie was the coolest person ever!!!! She is a firefly and Star Wars fan too!! We nearly died when we found that out! Karlie was the sweetest person I've every met and she is one of the people that I have truely thought of as a little sister. That leaves Courtney and Rosalia to be roommates. Courtney was the fun loving girl who kept calling herself a bad mormon because she drank caffine, but I think that she has one of the sweetest spirits. Rosalia was like Victoria and I didn't get to know her very well but she seemed fun.
Well that's about every one.. well the girls atleast, I didn't really hang out with the guys so I don't know much about them besides Jeremy is the cutest little return missionary ever!
I miss EFY so much and I want to go back sooo bad with everyone....

Driving can be... well scary

So I just got back from driving for like the 4th time on a real road. It was ok until I got to an intersection and a train blocked the way so my mom told me to go the long way. That was going great, exept for the tail gater, untill I was going on a busy road and I had to turn left to get to the road to get me to my house.
My car stalled, no big deal right? Yeah until the light turned yellow, then red and my car still didn't let me go very far until it would stall again. It took me a whole light to get from the middle of the intersection to the road to which I wished to travel. My mother then told me to pull onto the next street, and I thought she was going to take over so I got kinda angry so I angrily flipped on the turn signal and she started to yell at me to never angrily flip things. She then explained, angrily mind you, that she was just wanting to calm me down. So I angrily got out of the car and let her drive the rest of the way home, about a mile, I think.
That is my scary driving story and I hope I never have another one again.
Oh and I got the last x-men 3 ticket for the 12:00 showing. the very last one.

Hello

Thought I'd join the world of blogging so that the quarks, or however you spell that, and my sister could keep up with my life. That's basicly it.
So today was rather cool. Dyed my hair blondish, finished a culture paper for ASL and finish an abc book for childcare...well kinda I still need to do K and w but I can't think of anything for them. Oh and I'm banned from driving till I finish the abc book.. don' that just suck? Well laterz.